Happy first Lord Commander

To play the guitar was one of the skills I wanted to acquire for a very long time. As a Taylor Swift fan on my teenage years, I dream of singing the songs I like while strumming the hell of the strings. I tried playing simple songs my friends had taught me, but to practice it regularly was a challenge. I didn’t have my own instrument so I never really had a chance to play regularly. Until summer of 2016 that I religiously focused on playing and rekindle my inclination. All along there has been a guitar sitting still at home, no one bothered to play, so I borrowed it. Each day I sat on the living room and played until the strings snapped – literally! Two weeks have passed and I had swollen fingertips, my manner of playing? Also swollen. Haha. I am so passionate that I would even tell a friend of mine, do I need to continue this? I think I don’t have a natural gift to even strum the right way. And as expected, what a true friend normally does, he will tell me that I will get better, I just need to practice often. And I did. A month later I could change the strings by myself (oops it snapped again). My fingertips are still covered with band aids or plaster, yes it doesn’t really heal, maybe because I don’t let it by not giving myself a break even a day. There has been an improvement with my practice though, I would like to give myself that credit. I’ve been investing a lot of my time in this passion, so I thought it’s about time to also invest and buy my own instrument.

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By June, I finally got my own guitar. Surprisingly, it is a white acoustic from RJ, no wonder it got its name Jon Snow. My best friend was the one who recommended it, because of its color! I’ve been eyeing this model for weeks and planned to get the natural one but by the time we purchased it ran out of stock. I was in the verge of not buying but I eventually did, turns out I loved it a lot. It somehow inspired me to practice even more and learn fingerstyle. I love to learn the classics and a few songs I’ve learned was “Lost Star” and “When you say nothing at all”. How quickly time flies and I can’t believe its been a year. Music has been a passion of mine and playing a new instrument intensified it. You can just leave me an ice cream or beer with my guitar and I’ll be having fun. I shared a lot of memories with my beloved snow and I know there will be more. What a year it has been lord commander, so cheers to making good music and happiness 🙂

Rides in Dike

For so many years I manage to maintain my blog, writing my thoughts and pouring my emotions. I can say that its really therapeutic, I can even revisit some entry here and laugh as I remember my feelings at the time. This is the only place where I can actually vent out without thinking what others would say. If you are here right now you might either be a) a stranger that stumbled upon an entry about my love for music or b) someone that I actually love and trust (naks).

For the past years I had a privilege of traveling, seeing the world in different point of view. And as my eyes capture a variety of beauty, I can’t help but think, this images should be in my blog. Instagram is a really nice platform for breathtaking shots but places and things are more than just that. Places reminds us of a state of mind, it could be fun, serene, exhilarating or even peculiar. A simple picture of my coffee on a Saturday morning could mean so much to me. It might be a depiction of my perfect weekend, for as I sip the taste of caffeine I enjoy watching the latest episode of Greys Anatomy.


I went home last April with a heavy heart, losing Mama left me heartbroken. Despite the purpose of my homecoming I learned a lot of things (which will be on a separate blog) and had the chance to do what I love which is riding the bicycle. Whenever I had the time (basically when someone is attending the wake) we are visiting the riverside park at our town. Morning, late afternoon or even evening, we rode our bikes and roam around the place. The thing is when you are pedaling you had the chance to enjoy the scenery more, rather than running, the thing I used to do when going to the same place. The sun might be piercing our skin on mornings but the salty breeze of air left us refreshed and surely wake us up. For those who wants challenge there is even an area where the road is so narrow, one wrong move and will land you 3 meters high from the ground. To test your endurance you can also ride till you reach the next barangay. In that area you will feel like you’re someplace else in their autumn season. If only I’m with someone I like I will catch a maple leaf, I mean mahogany leaf (haha sorry Goblin reference). Before sunset is what I consider the lovers hour, they would sit on the brink of the dike and bond. It is so majestic that even for a stage 1 cynical like me I would actually consider it picture perfect. On the other side is a makeshift soccer field with a bunch of teenagers and kids playing. Who knows there could be one David Beckham in the making. As the sun set we looked for a vacant place, parked our bikes and started to munch potato fries. Few minutes of serenity, and will surely induce you to think of your life choices. But as we take another sip of our fruit shakes, a group of men walked toward us trying to strike a conversation. Turns out a ship is docked nearby and they are in their free-happy-hour time. We weren’t in the mood to make friends so we left and go somewhere in a whim. The next morning we were surprised to see the same set of people so we went on the other side of the bridge. We tried to ride on the riverside. As we reached the riverbank we cleaned our bikes only to draw more dirt as we are supposed to pass a dusty trail going back to the road. The funny thing is, on the river area our competition on the trail are big trucks that carry gravel so we have to stop twice to make them pass.

Aside from those times when my mom occasionally opposes my coming to the place for different reasons, I had a blast and surely missing the thrill. I’m literally counting the days as 1 month from now I’ll be coming home again. There’s been so many heartbreaks lately, disappointments and my schedule was pretty hectic without the feeling of fulfillment. Moments like these takes me to a happy place and eases my worries. Adventure fills my spirit and makes me more alive. So, see you on my next ride!

Mama

This past few days wasn’t easy, I lost someone very dear to my heart – Mama. April 1, 2016 at 4:16 PM I received a call from Manong, his voice wasn’t clear he is sobbing, “Did Nanay texted you? Mama is gone.” “What?” That didn’t register so well. I was in the comfort room so I walked in the corner and asked again. I gave an unsure cry then stopping right away, I need to verify that. I might be a subject of their ill joke, a very bad one. The signal was not cooperating so I went outside. “What are you talking about?” I asked again. “Mama is gone, wait I have to call Nanay” he answered and hang up. Then this was the longest 5 minutes of my life.

I can’t believe what I heard, last night Mama and I was just on the phone. She kept on talking about the lumpia shes preparing for the grand reunion in our elementary alma mater. With every chance she could get she kept mentioning how much she wanted to get a perm. I would tell her “Ma your still beautiful. Natural beauty dapat Ma.” “Ma gwapa kaman ya japon” I’m trying to make her laugh but for her its a serious business. I don’t know but the idea of recording our conversation crossed my mind. I thought I need to record this and collect it, I would oftentimes crack a joke and boy I never failed. Me even projecting in the camera while we video call is always a hit, with her I never miss. I never felt like she is saying goodbye. That I thought was wrong. It was.
I was trying to reach both Nanay and Manong but to no avail. 4:21 PM, Manong’s name flashes on my screen. He was crying profusely, I also cried hard and even harder when she gave the phone to my niece. I was with my vg friends so we prayed. I was closing my eyes not thinking much of what is happening around me. When I opened my eyes it was damp and raining so hard. It was like God saying she’ll be in a better place now, in my kingdom. I excused myself if I could go ahead of them and thoughtful as they are they even accompany me to church. I went to attend a mass before going home. When I reached home I wanted to be strong and felt that I’m going to be ok, I had already cried enough. Trying to do normal things I browse my facebook and saw my niece’s post about Mama. I cried endlessly, it suddenly dawned on me. I was just crying, even wailing. I only stopped when I felt that I can’t barely breath. No one is around and my only housemate was asleep, something might happen to me and they will only realize it hours later. I put myself together and went to my room.

Days had gone. 12 days to be exact. I’m on my way home and see Mama’s body. For the first time I won’t be coming home running just to hug her frail body, alive. For days I was laughing with my friends not showing any hint of grief, now I have to face it. I don’t want to look so devastated but by the looks of it I don’t know if I can handle it. On the plane I remember memories and I just wanna cry. Just a few more minutes, an hour perhaps. Am I ready to go home? I dont think so. But I will, for Mama.

The Goldrush in Coldplay Concert

Coldplay’s visit in the Philippines was a hit. For fans who had A Head Full Of Dreams, its announcement last year of having a concert here was Magic. Like the Speed Of Sound it took over the social media, All Your Friends surely knows. I remember I was In My Place when I heard the news, I kept saying Don’t Panic. Excitement really filled my whole body and it felt like I’m on a Violet Hill. I will even Talk with my friend ’til Midnight how Fun the night will be. With A Hopeful Transmission I contacted anyone I know, all the Brothers and Sisters that could help me get a pass. I’m ready to go even an Army of One in SM tickets just to purchase but I have work. Its Always In My Head, that’s the Trouble, I know myself when I had X Marks The Spot I’ll go even Up In Flames just to get it. Globe launched a campaign where one can purchase a ticket and it made us wait for a certain time to text a code for reservation. Clocks kept ticking and as the last second hit the said time, I sent the code and waited for a reply. It was a Ghost Story, minutes suspended in nothingness. The waiting game was the Hardest Part, but the reply, it Hurts Like Heaven. We felt like we are victimized by some advertisement scheme, my friend would say Don’t Let It Break Your Heart but it just did. It was such a Major Minus emotion. I was so disappointed and I swear I never felt Something Just Like This. Still, I felt that my dream of seeing Coldplay live will happen soon, like God Put A Smile Upon Your Face. It may not be this time but this Ink in my heart shall not fade because it will happen in a different place and time. After all life is like a Kaleidoscope, a beautiful immersion of dancing colors and surprises. Its Color Spectrum is undeniable and will leave you an Adventure Of A Lifetime. Who knows, maybe I’ll see you on that concert? Always remember it is still an Amazing Day.

I’m Cold lets Play

I am huge music lover. What I really love about it is it immerses you to different emotions. It brings you back to specific memories and even reminds you of a person. As much as it can convey what you feel, it also makes you fancy a perfect scenario where it should be played.

Coldplay recently visited the Philippines last April 4 for their A Head Full of Dreams tour. I am one of those who anticipated this moment years ago. Though I tried hard to get tickets with my friends, still luck wasn’t on my side. This made me a bit disappointed but I’m still positive one day I’ll be in one of those stadiums crying my heart out with people who feel the same.

Coldplay has a lot of collection of notable songs. Viva La Vida will still be on top of my list. The message of the song and its beat is just plain perfect. I would understand for someone who hear it for the first time if they do not comprehend. Its not like any other song where you can sing along after 5 plays. I remember I memorized it deliberately when I was in college. It was a friday night and I’m travelling to Guimbal from Iloilo City. On my cdr-king mp3 player I repeated the song verse by verse till I got it right, by the way, do you know that the instrumental is repeated twice before the second verse starts? Haha. Clocks is one of the coolest, it has a rockstar vibe for me. One of the covers that I liked was performed by The Voice contestant and it made him land a seat at the top that week. Fix You and The Scientist are emotional songs so I get it when a lot of people say that its one of their favorite and help them get over a rough situation. I could only listen to it once or twice though because I could either a)get too emotional and b)fall asleep during office hours. Yellow, my go-to jam on guitar. I love to sing it wherever I am and everybody loves it too. Beyonce even sing it in her documentary movie and I think its the most sincere song she ever covered. Since I play it everywhere, its memories is also wherever I am, but one thing different is that when I’m home my niece play the guitar and when I’m in Manila I’m the one who plays. Coldplay also loves to collaborate and one of my fave is with Riri baby, Princess of China is like a girl dream come true. Their live performance in France was epic and its one of those I wish I’m a part of. This song is even a part of my Road-to-10K workout playlist.

I should be writing about the band’s song that I really love but it turns out there is a lot of them. I feel like I’m giving a review of all of their songs haha. Judging by my preference one blog entry is not enough so I’ll write another. See you on my next blog and when you feel down today, just look at the stars, look how they shine for you. 🙂

 

P.s. Yes the title of this blog is so unrelated but I love it. But whatever haha.

Flashes of you

Damn each day is always a fight. Fighting the feeling of talking to him, when I see the green tick below his picture my heart kindda melt. I can’t lead myself in this emotional trap, the boomerang of emotions that only I have created. How fast should one could move on? Months? Years? I don’t know. But I think the real question should be: Do I want to?

Adventures and Happy Memories

For two new years now, it has been a habit of mine to have a deep prayer before going to bed after the midnight celebration. This is the moment where I talk to God, say thanks to the days passed, set my priorities and what I want to accomplish in the coming year. I could say that 2016 has been a whirlwind for me. I felt like I’m always full of emotions, falling in love in so many things and discovering passions that I long to pursue even before. It has its highs and lows, expectations and disappointments. There are also lots of thoughts that come to mind when I remember certain moments. I laugh at those times I do crazy dance steps and become bitchy to my friends when I get drunk. I cringe when I clear my schedule just to be with someone I really like and feels so sneaky when I set a laundry day when someone I don’t invites me to dinner. Several times I find myself being disappointed but never helpless. Not that I’m trying to be positive all the time but I always see the good even in bad situations.

This year my goal is plain and simple, do only the things that I really want. We are still on the first month of the year, but I feel that “Achievement Unlocked” has been triggered a lot already. As January 2017 comes to a close, lets have a recap of what a month it has been.

To my surprise, I’ve been addicted to Korean Drama. For months of not paying attention to the buzz about Descendants of the Sun, I’ve become an instant fan of Sergeant Major and Lieutenant’s love story. This paved the way to another krama to my heart, The Legend of the Blue Sea, I am now aware why Lee Min Ho is who he is now. I’ve never seen a guy wear a pink coat and sit while crossing his legs like lady so manly. Do you know what I mean? *Ok I’ll stop my fangirl mode here* Still, thanks to this show for giving me the “kilig” feels for about two weeks. I also became an official gamer because of mobile legend, I know I’m no good player but giving luck to my teammates by winning together is still good enough *haha*. With work, JMeter is doing well, although I didn’t really hear reviews up to now. I actually did like it and eventually spend hours even beyond work. I’m still waiting for my next task after Feb and am hoping for the best. It has also been months contacting my friend to pay up her debt, I know there are times I didn’t comply with my word but this girl is a bit trivial. She’s been telling me she’s gonna pay the next day for three months already, now I realized how hard it must be for guys who are trying to court a girl. At this point I understand why there are man who give up and disappears like a bubble. I also become pretty good in playing the guitar *feeler alert*, in fact we had a jam session last night and eventually one of my room mate had fallen asleep. That could be a good indication right? Haha. I also started my video blog, so far I have a Garin Farm, Guitar sesh, Sto. Nino, Sunday Run and Mt. Batolusong episodes. Mostly its gibberish and poor narration skills but it makes me laugh so hard whenever I watch the videos. One of the things I also accomplished with my housemates is cleaning the apartment, sad to say that two of them got sick and most of us had a body ache of a hiker after, but for the greater good our house looks fit for habitation now. Quick tips for cleaning the house: learn to let go, what are you gonna do with 10 pens that has an no ink already? Throw it. There are just really certain things we don’t need anymore but we cling to it. That is why we end up not having space for the better ones. My running regime has been consistent lately, in fact I already reached 6KM. I know that is not probably a big deal, but for a lazy ass like me it is something to be proud of. Last Saturday, we also hiked Mt. Batolusong. The unfinished business of 2016 and the experience was hands down my best hike so far. Let’s forget the part where I slid on a slippery side going down and fell so hard on my left body. The climb was pretty chill and the view was so amazing. I missed the Namaste Run and the Chinese New Year though, but it was all worth it. I took a lot of pictures with my eyes and stored it in my heart.

The first month of the year was a box full of exciting things and I can’t wait to see the surprises the next months has in store. Let us just stay positive and never be afraid to go out of our comfort zones. Looking forward for more adventures and happy memories to keep 🙂

Welcome 20ZENventeen!

I’ve been looking for a really nice hashtag this year because last year’s was a hit, not to mention that it has totally lived up to expectations, and the word ZEN just keeps on popping everytime so I’m sticking to it.

The beginning of 2017 is indeed a bit refreshing. We watched pursuit of happyness – which is totally awesome and inspiring most especially the time we knew that the whole story was real. I also watched X-Men, it is one of those moments when I say to myself “Damn, why is it that I just watched it today”. We then became so “kilig” because of decendants of the sun. Which reminded me of my burning desire to become a doctor, which could actually lead to a beautiful love story if I would meet a cute soldier. And ending the day with our favorite, the flash. I’m saying all these not because I’ve got nothing to do but watch the telly and be a slob. I just wanna share this because not everyday I enjoy what I’m watching. Or not everyday I had the time to relax and most especially not everyday I got to emphatize with what I’m watching and got to share it with people important to me (not to mention do commentaries and laugh at each other when someone gets the references 10 seconds later). Lastly I wanna share this, bro bo on didache says that this 2017 we are bound to climb a mountain. To reach our dream and be something bigger. We should be confident and not be afraid to fall because God is our invisible rope and he will save us no matter what. Indeed I’m about to climb mountains this year, remember the feeling when you reach the summit? Yes. Its priceless.

How’s your 2016 holding?

Is it just me or did you feel the same?Earlier today, I’m a bit flustered, my co-worker asked to borrow my wire extension. I was thinking that she will announce something important, we regularly hold month end meetings aside from special occasions and I thought this would be one of those special instances. Then I realized, Oh My! November is almost over. While the thought that in a few hours December will welcome us and Christmas carols will be in our midst, I reflected on the year so far. Surely I felt that 2016 passed in a whim. Digging deeper I asked myself the hardest question, Why? Why did I felt that way? Why did I feel like 2016 might have a faster clock compare to other years that passed? TBC 😁

Your Smile

There are really moments where you feel like writing a song…most especially if you are listening to Birdy and suddenly something inspires you to write one.

Your Smile

It is another day,
woke up and I should say
Everything seems so wrong,
but I choose to move along

There is this longing and pain inside,
seeing him with her makes my heart subside
This could be the sign,
to leave the past behind

But you move around flashing that crooked smile
Makes my heart melt, pushing anything gray
Filling my world all the color it needs
I could fall like this all over again

Pinch me dear
How could you be real
I thought its only in movies and all of those stories
Where someone erases your worries
With that smile, you made me believe they’re right

But you move around flashing that crooked smile
Makes my heart melt, pushing anything gray
Filling my world all the color it needs
I could fall for you all over again. ❤